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These are the days little one.
I’m stopping what I am doing right now to just look at you.
I see your tiny stance.
Standing there, toys in both hands, still in your pj’s looking up at me ready to follow me into the next room or anywhere through the house.
You want to be near me.
I am your happy place and your safety, your teacher and your only constant playmate.
I am your everything and you are mine.
There is not one single place anywhere on this Earth that I would rather be than home with you everyday. This is what matters. This is what is important.
I was with you every single day since you were born and although those days were long the time went fast. I can appreciate where you are at this moment to try to just take it all in. I try to study you in this moment and pray that I remember it.
I am already mourning the days you were a newborn and then an infant. No more breastfeeding and no more bottles. No more baby equipment, infant carriers or just rocking you while you are immobile. You wiggle around now like you have more important places to be. How did it go so fast when I was there every day, and my were those days so long.
Experience with your older brother has taught me that these toddler days only last but the blink of an eye. I will be careful to have more patience and cherish this time even more.
So I am not going to be mad that the house is messed up from you pulling clothes out of the drawers and your toys all over the floor.
I will try to understand when you just need to scream or when you just want someone to pay attention to you.
I will be forgiving on your needy days and pray for endurance on your energetic days.
I can slow down enough to remember what I needed as a small person and try to give you those things. These are your happy days, your carefree days. As far as you know this is the only world that exist. So innocent and ready to love. Simple, pure, and genuine.
Your love is unconditional and my do you have so much love to give! Your judgement doesn’t even exist yet. So fragile and dependent yet so smart and eager. I am amazed by you.
I watch you play and figure out things for the first time. I see how you have your own motives and ideas. I admire your small hands and tiny feet, your fine blonde hair and the way your entire face lights up when you smile.
I watch your face as you are experiencing new and exciting things. I wonder what kinds of things you will do in life and what kind of person you will be. I know there will be hard times because life is hard, sometimes people will treat you bad, and sometimes you will witness things in this world that you wish you had not. Unfortunately, I won’t always be there to shield you from these harsh realities.
However, right now these are the days that I don’t have to share you with the world yet. You are all mine, safe at home, oblivious to anything other than bliss. You are uncorrupted, pure, and innocent.
These are the days that you will remember and smile about when you are older. You will dream about the days when you had no responsibility and life was simple.
We both will long for these days when you were small. But for now, I will slow down, look at you, love you, hold you, teach you, grow you, and play with you because these are the days child, these are the days.