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  1. Stella
    September 4, 2020 @ 12:11 pm

    This must have been so difficult to write, let alone experience and I would like to sincerely thank you for sharing it with us. I can’t even imagine the pain you went throug, but I am so happy you were able to find solace in your faith.

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    • Amy
      September 5, 2020 @ 2:28 pm

      It was difficult to experience, but I know I’m not the only one. I appreciate you taking the time to read.

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  2. Chloé Arnold
    September 4, 2020 @ 10:40 am

    Just lifted you up in prayer! Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us. I have multiple family members who’ve dealt with miscarriage and infertility, and it’s just a heartbreaking experience. So thankful for your faith!

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    • Amy
      September 5, 2020 @ 2:28 pm

      Thanks, Chloe I could always use prayers.

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  3. Britt K
    September 3, 2020 @ 7:20 pm

    As someone who also experienced a second-trimester loss, reading this brought me to tears. It’s a feeling that you honestly can’t fully explain. Something that you wish no one would ever have to experience. I am glad to hear that you have been able to find some comfort in your faith. Know that I am sending you love!

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    • Amy
      September 5, 2020 @ 2:29 pm

      Britt, my heart goes out to you. It is hard always imagining the “what-ifs”. Thanks for reading.

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  4. Melanie williams
    September 3, 2020 @ 9:32 am

    I totally understand where you are coming from and sorry to hear about your loss. Keep your head up high and try to be positive as possible x

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  5. Sonia Seivwright
    September 2, 2020 @ 9:44 pm

    This made me very emotional. I have no words. I am so sorry for your loss. Stay strong.

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  6. Stephanie S
    September 2, 2020 @ 3:35 pm

    I’m so very sorry for your loss. Sometimes I don’t understand the reasons behind hurt, and pain. But I do know that God always has a plan.

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  7. Smita
    September 2, 2020 @ 12:37 pm

    I’m so sorry for your losses Amy! Your experiences will not be in vain. By putting yourself out there you really are providing an anchor to others going through something similar. Take care!

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  8. Kat
    September 2, 2020 @ 11:50 am

    I’m so sorry to hear about your loss and what you have been going through this past year. I truly hope that you will be able to fulfil your desire for another child in the future. Best wishes to you!

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  9. College Apps Abroad
    September 1, 2020 @ 7:21 pm

    Oh my gosh, I’m so sorry you had to go through all that. My husband and I are trying to get pregnant now and haven’t had any luck yet, so whilst I can’t relate to your grief, I can definitely relate to the feeling of not wanting to look at any more negative tests. I hope you continue to find peace with whatever the future brings. You’re not alone. <3

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    • Amy
      September 5, 2020 @ 2:30 pm

      Sprinkling baby dust all over for you. Thanks for reading.

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  10. Peace
    September 1, 2020 @ 6:46 pm

    I love that in the midst of all this you are still holding on to hope. I can’t claim to have even an inkling of what the quiet moments are like, when the thoughts assault you from all sides. At least not in the same capacity. Thank you for sharing this. It won’t be in vain.

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  11. charmaine macdonald
    September 1, 2020 @ 3:20 pm

    So many women experience miscarriage and many multiple miscarriages and it’s soul destroying but in time and in most cases, hearts heal and we all go on to eventually have our baby or babies, alhamdidallah.

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  12. Ellen Best
    September 1, 2020 @ 3:35 am

    A strong women’s writing of a time of sorrow and greif. It goes without saying, I reach out to rub your back and share the load. Not that emotional reaching can do much to ease the journey you take. Like many I once was there. Multiple miscarriages and an ectopic pregnancy three beautiful healthy children and the final blow a still-born … self delivered son. I have never forgotten my journey, or the pain it took to get here. At 63 years, with six grandchildren and hindsight I know I was not alone and birth is not a right of all women, but a privilege. When we scattered wildflower seeds in the spring I did it knowing that only some would come to fruition. I accept that now, but acceptance did not come easy. There is always someone who’s cup is empty or their journey harder but our personal journey is all that matters to us when we are on it. My cup is always half full, I am grateful for what I have and still shed a tear for those that were never to be, with no reason, no answers and no understanding of why me. I felt my daughters pain two years ago and my experience hopefully helped her, as yours will help others who read this or reach out when you least expect. Take care Amy, be safe.

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    • Amy
      September 1, 2020 @ 10:04 am

      Ellen, your reply was everything! You have such an eloquent way with words. Thank you for sharing your story. I love how you metaphorically described your experience with planting flowers. I’ve never thought of it like that. When women conceive we assume that it is a done deal but so often it is not.
      Thanks so much for commenting.

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