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Personal Reflections – Stories – Emotions – Healing
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In the Silence
In my deepest loneliness, everything seems quiet. Like being outside when it snows and the earth feels still. Sounding quieter than normal. The snow on the ground absorbs the sound. You can see this substance rapidly falling from the sky but when it lands it doesnโt make a sound. That’s what it feels like.In the […]

1st Birthday
I wasnโt sure how I was going to feel when this day came. In the summer of 2019 when I first heard the scheduled c-section date of March 2nd I assumed it would always be a day of celebration. From my past pregnancies, I had no reason to believe this one would be any different. […]

Kids 13 Years Apart
Thereโs this struggle with having kids 13 years apart. In the time since my firstborn to my second born, we did it all. From the first time in the snow, staying in a hotel, a trip to the zoo, seeing the ocean, attending a concert, first trip to church camp, we made sure to leave […]

I May Not Have All The Answers But…
I can show you what it is like to be in the dark, alone, scared, broke, unwanted, hopeless, angry, lost and struggling. Because I’ve been there. And I’m sure you probably have been too in one way or another. And you didn’t think anybody else would understand. You thought you were in this alone. That […]

A Letter to the Girl with Daddy Issues
Dear Broken Girl, You are chasing attention and affection in all the wrong places. Playing pretend because you think that’s as good as you can do. You think that you will never find a better man. You donโt respect yourself because youโve been disrespected and disregarded. Youโll grow up not believing that love is really […]

Haunted Memories
I live in a town filled with ghosts. Constant visual representations of the past haunt me daily. A tiny town filled with too much history I canโt seem to escape. When I look out the window directly across the street sits a small old house, where the first man I ever loved lived years ago. […]

Negativity
Negativity I’m guilty of letting myself go THERE. Actually, if I’m really honest with myself I pretty much stay there… I kind of live in this negative headspace. –I am predisposed to it. –It’s what comes naturally. –I was raised by doomsday pessimistic people. It is in my DNA. Maybe back in the day, it […]

60% Defeat with a Dash of God Mixed In
As 2020 comes to a close Iโve been down on myself. Looking at my goals from this year and not really being able to cross anything off the list brings feelings of disappointment and failure. I know this year was hard for pretty much everyone on planet Earth so there is that. But in a […]