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Personal Reflections – Stories – Emotions – Healing
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A Day in the Life: Health Anxiety Edition
It’s January 17th, 2022 at 3:30 p.m.My 4-year-old daughter and I just got back from a drive. It’s one of the activities I deem as safe that we are able to do on the long cold days of January away from crowds and sickness. I cling to the sun and the music filling my car […]

Punky Brewster and Other Musings
The other day I finally found time to watch Kid 90, a documentary on Hulu from Soleil Moon Frye aka Punky Brewster, and I haven’t stopped thinking about it since.Documentaries have always intrigued me. How do they live? What do they think? How does it compare to my life? What’s their story? I’ve always possessed […]

Getting to the Root of Anxiety
The stuff I know about anxiety is plentiful.Since my first panic attack, I found myself trying to navigate life by just trying to make them stop.I’ve read the books.I’ve prayed and prayed and prayed.I’ve been to counseling.I’ve meditated.I have done all the things. The Bible tells us not to worry.God’s got this. I can learn […]

Changing Courses
I’ve come to a fork in the road. I can continue on the same path passing on the toxic behaviors I’ve inherited. Or I can choose the path of uncharted territory. This is where I’m at.My body, mind, and emotions are causing me to halt. As if there is an invisible force field not allowing […]

In the Silence
In my deepest loneliness, everything seems quiet. Like being outside when it snows and the earth feels still. Sounding quieter than normal. The snow on the ground absorbs the sound. You can see this substance rapidly falling from the sky but when it lands it doesn’t make a sound. That’s what it feels like.In the […]

1st Birthday
I wasn’t sure how I was going to feel when this day came. In the summer of 2019 when I first heard the scheduled c-section date of March 2nd I assumed it would always be a day of celebration. From my past pregnancies, I had no reason to believe this one would be any different. […]

Kids 13 Years Apart
There’s this struggle with having kids 13 years apart. In the time since my firstborn to my second born, we did it all. From the first time in the snow, staying in a hotel, a trip to the zoo, seeing the ocean, attending a concert, first trip to church camp, we made sure to leave […]

I May Not Have All The Answers But…
I can show you what it is like to be in the dark, alone, scared, broke, unwanted, hopeless, angry, lost and struggling. Because I’ve been there. And I’m sure you probably have been too in one way or another. And you didn’t think anybody else would understand. You thought you were in this alone. That […]